How much is dignity worth?

As it turns out mine is worth around $7 and a night of horrible sleep, stomach pains, and horrendous sweating.
I cracked for a danish, pack of snakes, and cookies. And although they initially tasted good i now have a cut up mouth. And a nights sleep similair to an alcahol binge....
I still feel dizzy and sick like I have a hangover after 6 hours sleep.
Hopefully this will be a lesson enough.
I think my willingness to go on a binge stems from my current isolated situation.
I will change this with meditation and ringing family and freinds when the thoughts arrise.
No study yesterday but did go to the gym.
No gym this morning due to how my body is recovering from my sugar binge.

Japanese at a low

Finished four episodes of 伝説の勇者の伝説　and キャシャーン. Was feeling good with the アニメ but the movie sucked so bad that it sapped my will to do more Japanese for the night. It also didn't help that I downloaded the first 30 Volumes of One Piece which only serves to show how much I don't understand and how much I have to read...
Very depressing....
At least I spent another day without sugar. It could be that which has me in a bad mood...

A good night last night

Fitness - Didnt go to the gym yesterday due to leaving shirt at home. Got home from work with the intention of not eating any sugar again. Changing out of street wear first thing is the key. Cooking up kangaroo steak also helped.
Learning - Finished reviews, watched first episode of 屍鬼 which looks quite interesting. About 10% understood with subtitles. Figured out meaning of 相変わらず which is a bonus.

Japanese progress from April

日本語勉強 Here are my current deck stats
Sentences

In last week

594 reps/4 days

In last month

1830 reps/20 days

In last 3 months

4902 reps/62 days

Kanji

In last week

385 reps/4 days

In last month

1591 reps/23 days

In last 3 months

9372 reps/73 days

Currently Reading: Fairy Tail第０２巻　BLEACH第０１巻　One Piece第０１巻　エアギア第０１巻

Health - Sugar

Went on another sugar binge last night after almost a week without - taro bun, danish, mud cake muffin, milk de crunch, red bean bun. After the danish I should have been done as this was causing enough problems with my energy state and meant state as i was trying to do Japanese study at the time. Finishing all 5(?) left me in a real state of hyper activity, though i did get the study I wanted done, and finished what i had already read of fairy tail before. Sleep was fitful with being awake most of the night. Minor shakes. Morning stomach is definitely in mild discomfort. Have energy but feel it is false as I am also exhausted, however feel i cannot get back to sleep.